trust

I do think about him. I know.
I do SOMETIMES miss him. I know.
I love him? I don't know.
Be a couple? I don't want. I know.

I don't want anything to go any further. I need time for my own business. Another reason, more persuadable one, is that I'm afraid of something's change. One is enough. I don't want to be heartbroken again. I don't want to be hurt any more.

He was such a nice one.
He was such a handsome one.
He was such a cute one.
He did love me.

"Do you know when I'll stop loving you?"
"I don't know. Uhm, when you die, maybe..haha"
"Not that. The cue is ONE. Just guess."
" Hey hey, ONE day?"
"How can?no way".
"ONE life?"
"It seems to be true. But not what I think".
"I can't guess it out. What's that?
"I LOVE YOU TILL ONCE YOU STOP LOVING ME. BELIEVE ME".
...
just a broken promise.

How can I believe anyone again? I can like some guy, but only with a more-than-friendship feeling.
He's not an exception.
If you can make me trust you, we'll love!

The pursuit of HappYness

By chance, I did have that film and now on good mood with that. I really like 1 sentence of Chris: "I'm not the kind of person to give you the answer right when you ask me. But I'm the kind of person who knows how to find the answer and will find the answer".And he could do what he said, actually. Did cry when he cried in the love for his son when sleeping in a public toilet at night. Did cry when he was robbed. Did cry when he succeeded. The pursuit of HappYness is worth watching indeed.